I Wrote A Book

It’s been a long road, but I’ve finally written my book! On this blog, I’ve teased that I’m writing a book over the years but now that long journey has ended and it’s finally a reality. The book has transformed in so many ways I never expected and so have I since I started this journey to write a book. That book has a rough draft written and it’s currently being reviewed by some close peers of mine I trust with the hope Lord willing of publishing it this year in 2026.

Now the book and this blog is sort of a chicken and the egg situation because even I’m not sure which was first. I began this blog in June of 2015 and yet I’ve always had the drive to write some sort of book, but that was almost always fiction. Eventually, that desire to write books changed into writing screenplays and scripts, but again fiction stories. Original or adaptations of stories I had always loved to see on the big screen. As far as a Christian nonfiction book goes, which is the book I’ve written, I think that desire came about from my film school days around 2016.

I don’t believe I had that desire to write a nonfiction book until sometime in 2016. A part of that was the blog was picking up steam and I loved posting here, so that of course got me thinking about writing a book. There were also conversations in college with my classmates and even just general encouragement from those in my personal life who pressed me to write a book.

One influential person who encouraged me towards writing a book was my friend, James A. Hunter, who I met in 2017 when we attended the same church. Now at the time I have to admit I was a little jealous of him because he was doing the thing I had always wanted to be, which was a full-time writer. So I think if I remember right since college ended in December 2016 for me I needed new purpose, which James in retrospect helped inspire in 2017.

That new purpose was ministry and finally braving the writing process of a book. But apparently I wasn’t that brave because I only jotted ideas down and outlined from 2016 through 2020. It took a long time to even figure out what type of nonfiction book I wanted to write in the first place. One of the first ideas was an apologetics book called Constructing A Colossus, which at the time I stupidly thought would be a great idea if I wrote a 600-page book all on Christian apologetics (true story).

Then reality kicked in and that outline of ideas shrunk from 600 pages to 450 pages and then finally to 300 pages. Not to say I wrote that many pages, but rather my outline for the book was going to be up to those page counts. For a first-time writer, that’s crazy work to have the gull to think anyone would read a 600-page Christian apologetics book from a college dropout.

Since I was actively in ministry from 2017 and still am today, I’ve felt less and less of an urge to write an apologetics book. That’s mostly because I believe there’s much better apologetic Christians out there than me and in ministry apologetics isn’t very practical in my opinion. In my estimate, the proper place for apologetics is for the individual to build up their own faith and find answers in times of doubt. With that shift in opinion, so too the book changed.

By 2021, the book began to take shape and became a beginner’s book. A resource for new believers or those returning to belief in God to read. This idea was largely shaped by Peter Kreeft and Ronald K. Tacelli’s classic work, Pocket Handbook of Christian Apologetics which I loved growing up. A short read with so much packed into it. So the best idea became a pocket guide on the basics of Christianity. That last idea stuck and over the next 5 years I wrote on-and-off with that idea in mind.

Yet it wasn’t exactly a beginners book yet either. The focus was much more of a deconstruction to reconstruction book in 2021. As time and writing went on, that idea faded away as the trend of deconstruction was very much a 2010s thing. As I wrote more, the topic of deconstruction faded into being a section of a chapter instead of the main point of the book.

The actual writing process either began before or during September 2021 during what I dubbed the September Sessions. A 2 week brainstorm vacation in Texas where I got away to primarily write, but also see some of my family as well. A writer’s sabbatical if you will.

From there, life just got more busy and that meant this was a project on the back burner that I slowly would chip away at when I had the free time. But with Covid, planting a church, getting married, and then having a daughter with my wife it became harder and harder to justify writing in light of those responsibilities. Yet God overtime kept encouraging me through others to just keep writing so I did. That slow and steady process finally paid off when I officially finished the rough draft on January 12th of this year.

So what’s next? Well, the peer review will take anywhere from 60 to 90 days before I refine the book during the final draft stage. So until I hear back from everyone reviewing the rough draft for me, I’m going to be wrapping up the front matter and back matter of the book.

This means the different appendices and pages not apart of the body matter of the book. My aim is to complete those things early before I receive feedback and focus on preaching and posting old sermons here again. I’d like to also post more original blogposts again when the book is published, but we’ll see how God leads from here. With that, Godspeed and Jesus bless.

Still Waiting (10 Year Anniversary Response)

Back when I first started this blog, I was in a very different space then I am right now. After 10 years of inconsistently writing on and off again here, I’m amazed that I actually kept this blog still going! Back then it wasn’t very cool to blog with the existence and ever expanding reach of online video content. Now over a decade later, it’s even less cool to be honest but I just prefer the pen over the camera lens.

At the beginning, this was a platform for me to share my thoughts on a variety of topics and to this day it’s still that same space for me. Has the audience grown since 2015? Yes barely, but that was never the point. My aim for this blog is that you would see the honest reflections of my life and how I am on the way with Jesus. Communing with him at his table. Walking into even greater relationship with him.

It’s in celebration of the 10 years of this blog that I would like to pause and reflect on my second ever post simply called Waiting. How with the wisdom I have gathered in the last decade I can respond to a younger man who didn’t know his way. Didn’t know the future or what God had in store down the road on the critical journey. But first, here’s what I originally wrote all those years ago:

“This season of my life has been an interesting one. It has not been like previous seasons such as the time of intense spiritual warfare that lasted the duration of my first two years of high school. That was when I led a Christian club called “First Priority” at Eaglecrest High School.

On the other hand, it is also different than the season filled with teaching opportunities where God gave me the ability to lecture on why the Bible can be trusted, as well as teach in my church’s high school youth group on Titus 2:11-15. There was also the occasional spiritual small talk at work or school last year which was amazing to take part in with those who wrestled with certain concepts. Things like the Ontological Argument, “Is Catholicism Christian and can Christians be Catholic?”, and the small discussions concerning the existence of God.

But this season is different. It is different because in my life there is usually something huge I have to overcome and can only do so with the help of God. But this season does not have a mountain to conquer. It has no valley to explore or dark cavern of tribulation to go through, but is simply a time of waiting.

This season is significant because I have not had this much time to breath and look back at what I have gone through in my life. I do not like it that much either because I love to do things and accomplish great things that have purpose, but instead I am sitting on the sidelines as everyone else gets a turn at bat. I have friends who are getting married, having children, moving out, traveling the world, going on missions trips, and so much more. Then here I am just waiting for the next unexpected journey that God has for me.

Probably the funniest part of this season is that I do not know what I am waiting for or what lies ahead in my life! Is it marriage? No, God has told me to wait. Is it a missions trip? No, God has told me that that is neither my calling nor my purpose in life for now. Is it a career? No, God has told me that I am not ready and must first go to college to receive my education.

So what is it that I am so desperate to start? I have no idea. All I can do for now is wait. As I wait on the LORD, this passage comes to mind as I wait for my turn to hit a home run for the LORD:

Luke 16:10 (NKJV)

“He who is faithful in what is least is faithful also in much; and he who is unjust in what is least is also unjust in much.”

Some other passages of scripture that come to mind are Acts 2:42 (NKJV), 1 Corinthians 16:13-14 (NASB), and Isaiah 40:29-31 (NKJV) during this season of preparing for my next adventure with the LORD my God. In the meantime, I have been keeping my mind, body, and most importantly, my spiritual state active. I have been studying and reading about the history of Christianity, working out to maintain my body which God has given me, and staying up to date on current events as the world gets closer to its dying day.

I have also spent a lot more time focused on the five basics of Christian living: reading the Bible, studying the Bible, memorizing portions of the Bible, praying, and sharing the gospel. So as I wait on the LORD during this time in my life, maybe this little blog-post can encourage you to stand strong and press on in your faith as maybe some of you wait on the LORD as well. With that, Godspeed and Jesus bless!”

I laughed when I read that I experienced “intense spiritual warfare” as if the worst in life had already happened! If only I knew how unprepared I’d be for the intensity of the next decade. The highs and lows of living in this broken world. To think I needed more is both impressive and youthfully stupid.

For context, in mid-July of 2015 I would’ve just turned 18 in the previous month and was going to start classes at the Colorado Film School in the Fall. In other words, I thought I knew everything and had it all figured out. As I’m now 28, I in fact do not have life figured out. Life just got more difficult and will be even more difficult if I get to be 38 or 48 down the road.

I’m taking things one day at a time now that I’m a Dad and approaching the 3rd year anniversary of marriage to my wonderful bride. Keeping in mind that God could graciously give me many days beyond tomorrow or he could, in his right timing, call me home. I want God’s will, God’s way. All day, everyday.

In this season, I’m still learning the same lesson in new ways. Currently about 100 pages into a book I’ve hinted at for years that one day I hope to publish. Hopefully later this year if all goes to my plan, but then again I want it to be published when it’s done right. No need to rush the process. I can wait.

Falling more and more in love with my wife. Learning how to father my infant daughter. Studying to show myself approved every time I walk up to the pulpit when I’m called to do so. Always growing in God.

Absolutely beyond blessed with the life I have today and excited with where it’s going to go next. Grateful for all God has given me and for all of you that have followed this blog through the years. Here’s to another 10 if the Lord is willing. With that, Godspeed and Jesus bless.

Footnotes

  1. Waiting

Ecclesiastes: A Wise Life | 9-11-2022

Updated: 12/2/2024

Sermon Prep

This week while writing my long-gestating book during my paternity leave, I stumbled on an old sermon I shared to the kids ministry over 2 years ago. I have no idea why I wrote it down in my ideas journal for my book, but I discovered it again and figured I’d throw it on the blog. One day I’ll add all of my sermons from when I first started preaching, but that’s a project for another day.

Either way, occasionally when I teach and lead kids ministry at church I will write up a sermon for that Sunday. To be fair, it’s a lot less prep and research then I normally would do if any at all. I usually just take current themes in the main service and distill them into a mini message they can understand better.

Looking back, that must be what I did here during Reunion Church‘s Ecclesiastes series we did in 2022. I was just a month into marriage and there was a lot going on, so I must’ve done this prep in a hurry on short notice. Also, don’t have many photos from this era in life so I’m just going to use a picture from the honeymoon archives.

Either way, it’s a cool gem and honestly I think a lot of my sermons have been scribbled down in random places that I may never recover again. So for me, this was awesome to find today. Here’s the notes:

Sermon Notes

Opening Line

  • What is a wise life?
  • Ecclesiastes overview.

Intro

  • Girls: Brother’s girlfriends.
  • Gold: Grandad’s wealth.
  • Glory: Mountains are more remembered.

Life is a temporary paradox.

  • Everything is hevel.
    • Hevel = smoke, vapor.
  • Life like smoke seems solid, but vanishes before you can get a good grasp on it.

Transition To Main Point

  • Read Ecclesiastes 1:5-11.
  • All of life is out of your control.

Main Point

  • Read Ecclesiastes 12:13-14.
  • A wise life is to fear and obey God.

Why It Matters

  • Read Ephesians 5:15-17.
  • Read 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18.
  • A wise life is made up of little moments.
    • Meaning is measured by these moments.

Transition Out

  • How is the meaning of your life measured?

Final Thoughts

I vaguely remember this message and that it kind of went over the kids heads. I tend to be incredibly interactive with my messages, especially with kids so my notes are all over the place here. I must have created this sermon within a short window because I couldn’t find any drafts outside of this one.

Looks like a one-and-done sermon outline I bet I made the day before church. Anyways, neat find as I continue to press on and Lord willing finish my book sometime in the new year. With that, Godspeed and Jesus bless.

The September Sessions

Photo Cred: (1) | Updated: 9/20/2021

It’s been 3 days since I returned from my sabbatical. I was gone from September 1st through September 17th and learned a lot in that time. I figured out so many ideas in that timeframe, but I’ll just cover some highlights.

Sabbatical Reflections

First of all, being able to reconnect and live life with my family in another state was amazing. Getting the opportunity to spend over 2 weeks on vacation was tremendous. I’ve never done that before. It’s the longest vacation I’ve ever had.

I spent half the time with my sister’s family and then the latter half with my brother’s family. Investing in the people I care about most with the joy that comes from joking around to the more personal conversations you can only have with those you trust. It’s an experience overall that I will never forget. These moments have made permanent marks in my memory.

Then again, my favorite aspect of this sabbatical on that front was just seeing how my family has transformed in just 5 months since I last saw them. How their kids have grown up and are beginning to discover themselves at differing stages of life. For some, learning how to obey or trust is their biggest challenge in life. For others, learning how to do fractions or play football. In it all, I see how I encountered those challenges at those ages and hope in some way they learned how to overcome their challenges better with me being there.

Yet believe it or not, this wasn’t a vacation primarily. In fact, I left with a goal and things to do away from the restrictions of everyday life back in Colorado. This was a writing trip and my focus day-in and day-out was to work on a project I’ve had for over 6 years.

New Book

I’m writing a book. I’ve attempted to finish this book at multiple points, but the timing was never right to finish or even work on it. Too much change. Too many things I needed to go through before explaining to you. It’s what this blog has been building up to this entire time.

Sure, I started this blog in June of 2015 with some thoughts I doodled on a notepad during a flight from my uncle’s wedding in Cabo San Lucas in May of that year. But that wasn’t all that was going on at the time. What began in 2015 was a young 18 year old man deconstructing from faith. This book is about that story.

The story of how I chipped away and crushed the unstable foundations of a fake faith. A worldview that could barely see beyond the borders of modern American Christianity. A faith worth leaving for something better. My hope is that this story is ready and published in 2022. Stay tuned for updates on that front in the months to come on this blog.

New Blog Posts

With that said, I will still write on this blog. I’ve got two recent sermons I’ll translate and post here, along with new content as well. For now, here’s some insight into my plan for this blog:

  • Oct. 15th – Dawn + Joe’s Wedding
  • Nov. 30th – Book Update
  • Dec. 15th – An Ordinary Life: Physicality

For the time being, the book is my main priority and writing here will be less frequent until I’m done. I’m not going to stop writing here. I did just post a poem called Likes For Lust, which addresses how I’m processing issues like the Ravi Zacharias scandal. Outside of that, I’m bunkering down for the foreseeable future to get this done. It has to get done. It’s why I started this whole website in the first place. With that, Godspeed and Jesus bless.

Footnotes

  1. Free stock photos · Pexels